Haircut - Fresh Start

date: july 23, 2009.
time: 11:55pm.
eating/drinking: chewing gum.
feeling: bored/excited.
listening to: twista ft.faith evans.

Hey, so today i got a hair cut..It was honestly, a BIG transformation for me i haven't cut my hair since probably the end October (2008),
and havent had short hair since i was in grade 3 (currently going into grade 10).
Big change. But i have realized that with big change, comes great opportunity.
Not only was my hair very long befor, but its one thing i took pride in (having such long hair), but ofcourse, hair needs to be taken care of and split ends need to be taken off (lol)..
So i cut it off a nice couple inches, and now it is probably about an inch or half an inch under my shoulders rather then almost to my belly button.
I actually really like it, i can do more with it and i like it alot.
Also i was looking for a change, because im going growing up and maturing so i felt maybe trying a new look would be the great place to start a new me, a better more improved me.

I took a risk, and 'with risk comes great reward'.
I took a chance to change myself, and 'with change comes great opportunity'.

-kristyn deanna <3

Fake Friends.

date: july 20, 2009.
time:5:53pm.
eating/drinking:nothing.
feeling:bored/excited
listening to:chrisbrown.

Basically, lately i've been seeing a lot of as people would say 'fake friends' amungst the people that i know.
I really really dont understand the point of being a fake friend towards someone, dont you get tired of having to fake all these feelings towards them? And what good do you get out of it?
And where do you get the idea of faking a friendship, at one point do you not enjoy somethings with the person your faking the friendship with?
Correct me if im wrong, theres absolutely no point in doing that, faking a friendship, because that makes you as an individual fake does it not. Yes it does.
If you dont like someone, DONT MAKE AN EFFORT TO FAKE A FRIENDSHIP.
If you dont like someone, FORGET THEM.
If you dont like someone, DONT HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH THEM.
LOL, isnt that more logical & let alone easier?
-kristyn deanna xx.

Parents.

date: july 16, 2009.
time:1:47
eating/drinking:nothing.
feeling:mad&confused.
listening to:myself type/nothing.

alright so basically, i woke up today and walked down my stairs to see my parents outside the house at the front door steps painting the floor, and talking to my neighbours.
And as i walk past the front door to go to the computer room, i was hearing my mom speak about a recent incident i got into, to my neighbours in whom i never really talk to...Sure an occational 'hi or bye' thing but that is all.
Anyway, so i heard her talking about this incident in which she claims to be ashaimed of me that i did such a thing... correct me if im wrong but if your ashaimed of something dont you NOT want it brought up again? to anyone?
Thats what i thought, but obviously my train of thought is wrong because she was telling these people my business.
Them not being the first people she has told, them along side my aunt(which i understand),her friends(i dont understand), and now my neighbours?
But who's to say these are the only people shes told.
I just dont understand the concept of saying your ashaimed of something i did then telling everyone about it. Obviously your not ashaimed enough to not talk about it.
Stop telling people my buisness!
If you ask me, it's very hipicrital to tell me i shouldnt talk to the people i got into this incident with, shouldnt be happy about it, and shouldnt tell people about it.. but meanwhile your going around telling different people.

Parents honestly, dont usually confuse me... but now, i have no idea what to think.

love.

how do you move on from a person your not ready to move on from?
and why should you?
if you 'love' someone, why should you get over them if you dont want to?
& how do you really know when your over them in the first place.
one day you feel like you dont want them anymore,
the next you doo...
Can it get more complicated ?
I will get over someone when i am ready, and eventually.
you cant rush feelings, and or ignore them either..

recently ive come to the conclusion, that it TAKES TIME TO LOVE
why are people going around saying they love a guy they just started dating?
better yet, how can you love someone that quick?
the answer in my opinion is, YOU CANT..YOU CANNOT.
i will admit yeah im guilty of this a couple times, but it was time i grew up and realized that theres a difference between
LIKING someone..
BEING IN DEEP LIKE with someone..
and LOVING someone.
theyre all completely different feelings.
you just have to be willing, and smart enough to divide the 3 feelings up.

Christopher Maurice Brown <3

The most amazing singer ever .

Chris brown, has to be the most played artist for me.
It's safe to say i love him.
Hes my idol along side my favourite singer by far.
Music just isnt MUSIC without him.

Alright, i understand theres this big 'DILEMMA', that thing with him and Rihanna.
Yes i agree it was wrong for him to do that, and i dont agree with it,
but common cut him A LITTLE bit of slack? In my opinion no one made a big deal
about this topic befor this incident and now that it was a celebrity its huge.
GET REAL!


For radio stations to stop playing his music, is stupid.
For music channels on tv to stop playing his videos, is stupid.
For people & fans to stop liking him and his music, your all stupid.
Wake up and smell the COFFEE, see the SUN & come back to reality please.
If you were a TRUE fan you wouldnt give up on the kid, hes 19-20 years old, CUT HIM SOME SLACK.
I dont see you hating LIL WAYNE (dont get me wrong i love him), for disrespecting woman in some of his songs.
But yet this is a huge dilemma.
When you come back to reality and realize that your all immature,
cause men hit girls ALL OVER the world and we dont do SHIT, then a celebrity does it and.. WOAH now its a big deal.

I DONT AGREE WITH WHAT HE DID
I DONT AGREE WITH WHAT UR DOING!

Its the music. <3
Its the lyrics<3
Its him<3
i l y
kristyn deanna 'loopszfbaaby'

Reality..

reality has set in.
It seems we`re deceived by life its self, and those who we love...or seem to love.
Your bestfriends become your worse enemys,
Your boyfriend suddenly becomes your babys daddy,
And your girlfriend suddenly is a baby momma...your babys momma.
& its then you realize, your life just took a sudden detour.
& you realize, your not in your mothers care anymore.
Then you realize your living on your own, supporting a baby you didnt even want.
And everything you wanted to happen..doesnt.
Your going in alone, and your coming out alone.
Nobodys going to save you, except your self..your the only savior.

And were all strong enough to get through anything.
No matter how impossible it seems to be..
You have STRENGTH.
So Use It.

-kristyn deanna. 'loopszfbaaby'